Day 46

Brian weighs in today....

As many of you have experienced, there are times in your life when you just don’t know what to feel. This is definitely one of those times for Carie Anne and me. We are obviously excited about the news that we received last week at the doctor’s office. This was definitely a feeling of excitement and relief.

Last night when Carie was going to bed, she mentioned to me that the baby hasn’t kicked in a few hours. This is probably something that we shouldn’t worry about but with everything that we have gone through we were obviously nervous. In every conversation with Carie after that, I have asked if she has felt anything. I even went to get a glass of orange juice before laying my head on the pillow because she always responds to that. In my last conversation with Carie, she had heard from Baby Wittenberg. She must have been tired and took off a couple of hours from exercise, just like her father lately.

My mom has been in the hospital since early February and I am at a point of frustration. She has been traveling the path between normal rooms of the hospital to a room in the critical care unit several times. She has gone through many infections, taken every type of antibiotic and has earned the nickname of mystery woman from her doctors. I have visited her a few days this week while wearing a mask and gown and it is painful for me to see my mom feeling this way.

Before starting American Idol last night, Carie asked me how I was feeling about the whole situation and I couldn’t even think of a word.

At my desk at work, I have a copy of last week’s ultrasound that is in view every time I lift my head from my laptop. After staring at it, I am proud to say that she has my nose. Which may be good or bad news depending on how you look at it.

Carie did go see her regular doctor yesterday. All is well. This doctor did suggest that we start a steroid treatment next week to help the lung development. Good thing that she doesn’t play Major League Baseball, yet.